So... Where Have I Been? An Honest Chat.

Just so you know, you are definitely not on your own. I definitely agree that you dont give yourself enough credit, and you really should. I have been in a similar situation this semester, and i am so incredibly proud of myself for sitting my exams. I really hope you feel the same about yourself!! Best of luck with your results and the rest of your course❤

you are amazing eve, sending so much love xxxx

Eve I'm really sorry that you've been through this I hope everything get's better soon.

Omg I relate so much to you ☹☹ This has been so helpful to watch to just know that someone else like you has felt the same thing as I do :(

Hey Eve :) Thank you for uploading this really honest video explaining what it can be like to be a student whilst other personal things are going on and mental health is difficult. As a second year uni student myself and someone who has depression and anxiety, I really related to this video and it was so refreshing to hear someone else talk about their struggles. You should be so proud of yourself for opening up about this and for seeking help because that can be so hard to do. You are such an inspiration. I'm so sorry that some of this year has been so rubbish for you but I'm excited for all your holiday plans and I hope you take the time and rest you need to start healing. Sending hugs xxxx

I had a time like this in my first year of university. (I didn’t have the mental side to it which I’m grateful for) but I a death of someone really close to me, and then every single thing go wrong with my car, I got sick, I had exams, had another death and the list goes on. All of those things that can happen would be manageable but when you add university into the mix it makes EVERYTHING feel so much harder. But where there are hard times there are amazing times ahead is what I always have to tell myself. You’re doing amazing just by doing the best you can 💕

sending all my love

Hey Eve ❤️ just wanted to say I REALLY recommend a mix of CBT, mindfulness and meditation. All of these helped me tremendously. I used to have severe GAD & IBS due to this but they’ve ceased entirely after a years practise and now my PMSD is also manageable, before being an absolute nightmare. The effects are noticeable even after a week. Good luck 😊❤️

I would like to give you some hugs ♥️. I understand how hard it is and hope you getting better soon .
/ Your fan from Thailand 🇹🇭

Thanks for speaking out. I was at Oxford Brookes and had to drop out due to mental health. Hope you're better soon

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It’s exam season we all know where u been girl

Eve my first thought when the video started was "oh my god her hair looks amazing, the curls are so pretty!"

Thank you for talking about these things. Its hard to do especially with a large platform. I'm proud of you for talking about it.

Hi Eve, just thought I'll let you know that your not alone, ever since I graduated from Masters in 2016 I've been going through the cycle of contract/casual/temporary work for at least three months and have been out of work for months. I can understand the anxiety you go through with your studies, I've also been very anxious about where I'm heading in my future and anxious when I'll ever get into a full time role in the field I'm in. I felt that I've been left out and that I'm not getting sufficient enough work and sufficient enough pay at times, but I'm doing all I can to be proactive with getting myself out there and get my foot in the door, so I've decided the best way was to do side work and freelancing while I look so that I have sufficient experience when I one day land a position. Though I have to admit that I messed up a bit, I didn't think about doing side jobs just so that I can earn money at a young age and I felt I was quite picky with where I wanted to work. Now I've realised that in life it's all about being proactive and getting yourself out there. So in summary, I would say just try to build up your confidence whenever you have a chance and have a supportive network of people and perhaps meet new people and you'll get there, I'm happy your going to one of the best universities in the world, so be grateful and proud that your studying there, I understand at times, things may not work out such as the president competition, this happens to me when I go to numerous interviews as well. I'm a very aspirant professional and I pray one day to be successful in my field.

Ah bless u Eve❤️❤️

I very rarely comment you videos but felt I wanted to comment here. I've just finished my first year at uni and have struggled in different ways due to my age (I'm 30) and because I am a commuter. I've also had a lot of personal stuff going on in the background while trying to hit deadlines, revise and form some kind of social life. I too have woken up feeling completely empty and blamed it on myself or brushed it off as little things that would eventually sort themselves out... until I watched this. I will be taking myself off to the Dr to get some help because I honestly cannot tell you off the top of my head one thing I have learned in uni this year. It's the first time I have ever struggled with education/revising/memorising and even though I did quite well in the majority of my essays and exams and finished overall with a high 2:1 it has been at the expense of my mental health.

I've been watching you since I went back to college, at the age of 26, to get my gcse's, I then watched you through my access course and have continued to do so since then. You are such a beautiful individual and much wiser than your years. You remind me a lot of myself in the way that you carry so much with you, not just your own stuff but everyone else's too. Be proud of you and give yourself more credit than you do. I've gone through the who life thing and only now gone back into education because I physically couldn't before because of other commitments. I wasn't prepared for how much it would take it's toll on me so I cannot even begin to imagine how hard it is for people your age; I certainly couldn't have coped with it.

Please stop apologising, I know that is so much easier said than done, but you really do not have to apologise for anything. Those who love you will be there for you regardless of what you think of yourself. But from a random stranger, who now knows that I need to go and seek help because of your bravery in sharing this, you are wonderful, you are capable and things will get better x

I had the same feeling getting to uni that something wasn't right. I realised that the health of your mind is the most important thing in the world. While sometimes your mind can deceive you and it can be a storm in a teacup, if you are feeling all over the place to the point where you are on the edge, you have to make a change.


Take some kind of a break from the intensity, the travelling will probably do you good. I think the problem with society is that it crams academic information into people without allowing them to develop emotionally. And funnily enough an academic education doesn't count for that much for jobs/life. It sounds like the issue is with your close relationships and conditions such as anxiety and rumination is fairly solvable, but you need time to meet new people and learn how to deal with all the anxiety etc. bad relationships throw up.


Most people go through this but don't talk about as much as they should. It's lucky you're targeting it early before it's too late. Good luck.

Thank you so much for taking the time and energy to make this video. It came at exactly the right time! X

You don't owe us anything Eve! Your mental health always comes first! ❤️❤️❤️

So brave and so amazing x

is it possible to care so much for someone through a screen ? :'( eve, our hearts go out to you -- learn to give the help and support (that you give to others in abundance) to yourself and that is all that matters. xo

SO brave for posting this and showing yourself to be so vulnerable online ❤❤

Hallo, es tut mir so leid, dass du dich in letzter Zeit nicht großartig gefühlt hast. Ehrlich gesagt, ich weiß, wie es sich anfühlt, so gestresst zu sein und hoffe nur, dass Sie sich bald besser fühlen. Wir alle wissen, dass sich all Ihre harte Arbeit auszahlt, aber bitte kümmern Sie sich gleichzeitig auch um Ihre Gesundheit. (Normalerweise bin ich ein stiller Zuschauer, aber das hat mich so verärgert und traurig gemacht für dich)

I’ve only recently come across your channel and this video has resonated with me so much. I have had a lot of problems this year as well and it was only when I double failed an exam (having never failed anything before) that I finally asked for help. It’s a long slow journey but I feel so much better already and although nothing is fixed yet I’m working on it and taking time for myself. My biggest thing is trying not to feel selfish for needing to take time out for some self-care and recharge but we’re all working on ourselves together and I am so glad that you are on a more positive journey now

eve, you are so brave. to come out and tell us that youre struggling is a very big deal and its hard but im so glad youre getting help and that you have a good support system now. youre such an inspiration. to do a lengthy video like this and just be so raw and human is so relatable. theres so many of us students that are struggling emotionally, and i really want to thank you for using your platform like you do. youre potentially opening up so many conversations and helping so many people. it really is admirable. thank you for this xx

Eve do you do any mindfulness activities? because you should it helps to clear your mind and give you more control over your mind.

I hope you’re doing better now, your hair looks beautiful btw 💜💜💜

You are so strong and all your viewers family and friends are so so proud of you! As someone who suffers with mental health, it took me 10 years to ask for help but the first step to getting better is asking for help... you are an amazing person and so beautiful, put yourself as number 1 and focus on getting better ❤️❤️

Ik this is probably a bit niche but could you do a video for preparing for the MLAT or include it in an admissions test video?

Hi there, Eve! I’m so sorry that you feel this way. I’ve never commented before but this got me quite sad for you. I want to tell you I go through this every day. I moved to the UK three years ago and things that relate to change will never get better but YOU will. You will. I did not have a reason to wake up as well and I felt like I was ungrateful as well. What helped me, what has helped me since I was 9 years old, is keeping a journal. Try it, Eve. Once you put those words on paper, I SWEAR, it helps so much. It keeps you mind tidy and once you see what you have written you can analyse it and evaluate it - just like A Level English Literature essays, haha. My point is - try. Even if you are in a good place now, write. There are no restrictions to how much or how little you write, or how often. You can cuss, you can cry, laugh, draw... It helps me, I want it to help you too because you remind me of myself so much. I really hope you are better💜
Riley

Keep up the good work Eve! You’re worth it haha 💕

Forget the people who weren't there for you, it like expecting a wooden table to make a sword for you Learn to let go and move on theresbetter plans ahead

You're super awesome :)

Hi Eve thank you so much for posting this and for being brave enough to admit that it’s okay not to be always perfect. I’ve been through lots of stuff rn but you encouraged me sm. Massive thanks from Japan 🇯🇵

oh my god eve, im 19 minutes in and i had to stop because im absolutely overwhelmed with emotion right now. i really really hope you see this comment.

you talking about how your mental health has been poor and how it impacted your daily life, and then going on to express how proud you are for just getting through your exams and committing to them without caring about the grades because the fact you did it is so amazing... that hit me so hard and im overwhelmed.

i have, realistically, been suffering with depression for many many years and i’ve never been in a stable enough situation to be able to tell anyone, let alone do anything about it- and this is since i was about 11 as a result of an awful awful family life. so it’s been eating away at me every day for about 7 years, making me feel numb and empty every single day, wherein i find it so difficult to enjoy tasks i once loved, go outside, speak to people and look after myself in any way. i developed anaemia as a result of my awful eating habits and throughout year 13 especially i stopped going to school because i just couldnt get up and i really didnt want any social interaction. i have always been an a* achiever, but this obviously destroyed my grades and as a result of awful insomnia, i ended up with BBC after failing my last exam for each of my subjects. this only worsened my depression and i started seriously planning my suicide for the first time in my life, i considered the ways to go about it and what id say and who id tell... i relate to absolutely everything you explained and it is so painful to hear about other people experiencing it too. but just like you, i for the first time ever managed to make myself get help. i finally confronted my parents and i arranged my own doctors appointments and eventually my therapy, which i am still waiting to have. i have never been so proud of myself in my life. all the a*s and things ive experienced are meaningless compared to this, i truly believe like i have some power for the first time ever. although im not any better and im still extremely low, i am still very proud of myself for getting over that life-changing hurdle.

so, to wrap this up, i am SO happy and grateful to hear you are proud of yourself for getting over such a huge hurdle, and that made me so emotional. your mental health will always be the most important thing, and to hear you are proud of getting through what you felt was impossible is making me so emotional- i completely relate and i am so fucking proud of you and so happy for you.
hearing about you tackling things you thought were impossible and being proud of yourself has given my day a lot of happiness and meaning and i really thank you for that, i am so touched by this video and so appreciative for it ❤️

i truly hope your mental health improves or stabilises and you feel GOOD.

your not the only one, ive literally had / have the same problem - sending all my love (im so late to this video :p)

Mental health is really hard to deal with, especially since you constantly have to better yourself to try to be "the best version of yourself" when actually there is not such a thing as "the best version of yourself". It's the version of yourself that you are proud of, that you can look back and think "wow, this is the best, I cannot do any better then this!", but you don't want to say because there are people who are better then you, people who you might see in your life who appear to better then you when actually this is not really the case. People are going to compare themselves to each other, this is just a natural thing, we all want to be the best, when the best is what you think is the best, not what everyone thinks is the best for you.

This got a little deep.

I just feel like my college course is very crap and corrupt, so I'ma little mad.

The Tories cutting to public services and provisions does not help at all.

The Tories cutting to public services and provisions does not help at all.

I am so late but when it comes to mental health in a sense you can never be too late. It only took a few mins into the video to know that I was going to completely relate. I was exactly the same when u were going through this. This year from beginning to mid has been the same for me as it was for you. It’s a little bit strange but I find a lot of qualities in you that I have in myself almost completely and I can’t even begin to express the level on which I relate. I am better now and I hope you are too and when you get into that good place again I will be relieved for you because you deserve it. You are so hard working and have such a good nature. Anything you do in life you will be so successful at. Always remember though that self care and mental health is the MOST important thing and nothing should ever prioritise before that because you are no good to yourself or anyone else when your mental health is not great so always look after yourself. I’m also glad that you posted this video especially because your reasons are so true and it’s great that you understand the truth in those reasons. Additionally, I’m glad you talked about Oxford because I too really want to go there so how it suited you in a sense and what it was like in terms of their facilities is very helpful. Have a lovely end of year and rest as much as you like and need. Lysm.🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Always here xz

Maybe it's an allegy to pollen

What or who is trinity ?

You are amazing, I have been there and I am glad you asked for help

The part where eve started crying just wanted to hug her and tell her everything be okay
All your fans love eve and please don't forget that .

I know I'm super late commenting this but tysm for uploading this

aww gimme a hug lill siss

I thought "I'm feeling soz for myself" yet this is at the moment dot of a fraction of a second nowhere near the amount youve been through Eve my dear! Youve proven yous can take abuse and people questionning your motives far better than I can! Eve Bennett youre a goldengirl! Ms Bennett youre a star! Nothing will stop me from following your channel. Nothing can deter me from being your fan. This is something nineteenyearold students of this era's cohort Edinburgh, UCL, Cambridge, KinsCollegeLondon&OxfordBrook can learn from as they can see this a proof heroes will not stop and youre a dreamdeveloper!