questions and answers: my 5 year relationship, dealing with regret, and why you won't see my baby

I’m sorry about the background noise and the constantly mischievous kitty! ❤ I can only imagine home life will be more disruptive in the future 😂 but I did my best. Sending much love and light.

You are very wise to be so young. Wish I could have had you around through most of my life to help me on my journey. I remember when I was a little girl, all I wanted to do was make people happy and proud of me, yet there was alot of negativity coming from many people and it seemed for no reason at all. I began to analyze myself, every time someone was rude, mad, or hurtful to me. I tried to figure out what I had done wrong and what I should have done differently. Most of the time I came to the conclusion, no matter what I did the outcome would have been the same. So I shut down and kept to myself. Then people wondered what was wrong with me. I was shy, didn't talk, and stayed hidden as much as I could. One day in my teens a friend told me I needed to toughen up, not allow people to walk all over me, and to stand up for myself. So I became tough and began treating others the way I had been treated. It got me by for many years feeling vindicated, confident, and secure. I never had many friends and people didn't like me, understandable. As an adult I put all of my time into my jobs and raising my children. Eventually it got tiring, always having my guard up and playing this part in life to keep from being embarrased and getting my feelings hurt by people who were rude, mean, and hurtful. Now that my children are grown, and my husband has gone to be with the Lord, I feel I can let my guard down and try to enjoy what's left of my life by being kind and helpful to others. I feel I have missed out on so much throughout the years and wish I would have lived my life differently. I feel blessed that I was able to be here during these times and should have made the best of it. So I too have alot of regret and guilt. I should have realized, treating others the way I had been treated was not the answer. It only made their journey unpleasant as others had made mine. Oh how I would have done things so differently, please forgive me.

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I agree with not showing the baby online. It's a dangerous world and you have to protect them.

We just want to see you happy. Keep your family private.

Wowww ths box is epic yaar

I really appreciate your kind thoughts n words in your video n I am trying everyday to be patience like you. Thank you

Thank you so much for your words... Exactly what I need right now ❤

Totally agree with not sharing your baby on the internet. The baby didnt say yes to this so it would be unfair to do that

Hello, my name is Silviane, I'm Brazilian. I translated what I wanted to say to you on Google Translate.
I love your videos! Please talk about how you learned to record videos and edit. Could you give us tips on how to make beautiful videos like yours?

Your life is amazing to me keep moving forward

much love

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Loved the video and your kitty 😻

De qué país eres

There's a lot I love about so many of your videos, but I especially appreciate your emphasis on positivity and self-belief, even in the face of life's challenges. Broadly speaking, as a culture we've become much more open talking about anxiety, depression and other such mental struggles (as well as the larger systems that can help or hinder each of us in life's journey), and overall I think that's very needed and important. But one downside I've observed is that, without being balanced with a belief in one's own agency and resilience, these insights can actually encourage a sense of defeat and stuck-ness that is counterproductive. I've fallen into this trap myself at times, and seen many dear friends fall into it as well.... there's a lot of negative in the world that can be overwhelming and I don't blame anyone for feeling beaten down from time to time. But to believe you have the power to change your circumstances for the better in spite of life's challenges, however unfair those challenges are, is essential to human flourishing. The more we can help each other hold onto that, I think, the better off we'll all be. 🙏🏼

For the privacy and safety of your child, I am glad to hear you won't be sharing their face online

WHO WANTS TO REALLY SEE YOUR BABY STUEPS

全面贊同小安，我對你也是愛情😊

I see your cat at the corner very interested in your movements. She is too cute!!!😂😂

Becoming a mother has been the best thing I’ve ever done. Wishing your little family well.

I think you are making the right decision with not showing your child on line, we can just imagine the cuteness which will no doubt exist! Love your videos, and love to see how you are growing more peaceful, accepting, and happy with yourself. I'm a big fan of your happiness, and I'm giving you a hug from afar!

Wow, the life your little boy will have, well he will be so blessed. In a world where technology is stuck in front of children’s faces to be a babysitter instead of being a present parent or teacher, is so incredibly sad.

Your cat is adorable 😍

That looks like a ‘parking on the wild side’ throw on your lap ! So beautiful.

My favorite club ... the Putter ☺️

Multumesc frumos

You are wise beyond your years.

Me encanta tu casaaaaa , las plantas todo esta hermoso ❤, todo te saldra bien mi querida ya veras muchos besos desde Panama mi vida ❤

I love your comments about homesteading. This was a great video, thank you for sharing.

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👉As much as I love your channel, I've always imagined a time when you faded into the mist of reality, and would be happy for you, with this legacy here to enjoy. ♥️🙏💞

Thank you

Thank you so much for this podcast. Mindfulness is so empowering. ❤ 🧚‍♀

Being introverted and talking so well !👍😊

Being introverted and talking so well !👍😊

Being introverted and talking so well !👍😊

Being introverted and talking so well !👍😊

Being introverted and talking so well !👍😊

Being introverted and talking so well !👍😊

Just don't tell those little humans they can be any 'gender' they dream up. Reality matters.

I think it is both loving and wise to protect your child’s privacy. ❤️

Ahw my mom used to needlepoint when we were young. So sweet!

I completely relate to what you have shared about your personal journey and attitude to life and managing your emotions Paola. Your outlook and attitude is very healthy and productive. Self-awareness is key and you clearly are very self-aware. Well done! Blessings and love ❤

You're building emotional muscle. Being present is a lifelong journey, but one worthy of consideration. Love your channel, Paola. Your art has given me lots of joy. Thank you.

All too often your insight and soul- check is missing, and people feel defeated . Your uncommon step of finding what’s right for you is brave, conscious and will be fruitful. Good for you.

Hi Paola, What is anxiety?

I’ve heard you mention anxiety in several videos. What is anxiety? I don’t mean a dictionary definition. Anxiety is a non-material concept. What I’ve noticed is that there is no agreement about what anxiety is. People use that word to describe different types of body sensations that are undesirable. So I can’t form a picture of it in my mind about what anxiety means to you. What I’m asking is to please make a word-picture that describes the various indications that let you know when you are experiencing anxiety. Imagine that you are describing the color green to a blind person.

By the way, I have anxiety from time to time, but I would call it an MCAS flare up with vasoconstriction and a blood pressure spike triggered by a food allergy, usually wheat. It causes pain in the chest and it is completely debilitating for a day or two when it happens. I have to take antihistamines to survive it. So, that’s what anxiety means to me. I’m curious what anxiety means to you.

Cheers

Bravo to you for not putting your child online. I'm not sure if y'all are aware but there is now software that allows a person to take a photo of someone and put themselves in a r@pə video with that person. Even children. We live in a very sick world. Keep your children offline. Especially photos and videos.

Eres unica en tu arte y tan creativa.❤