Psychiatrist explains symptoms and impact of clinical depression

Serious depression is terrifying, it’s like being tormented by your own mind but you can’t get control of it, you don’t sleep well, or eat much, it takes you to a very scary place

I joined the military thinking that it would fix my self worth, and laziness. My family did not believe mental health issues were real, so they pressured me to go into the military. I was training to become a special operator. I made it to basic training, and like all of my fellow trainees was very stressed. I dealt with this for 9 days, each day convinced it would improve and id make it through. The ninth day, i know now there was a discernable shift. I became completely immersed in darkness. I stood outside in formation, looking to the right in parade rest i saw myself hanging from the 3rd story of an outside stairwell raised off of the ground. I didnt question the thought at that time. As i moved forward, it began worsening, i wrote in my notebook what i thought and what i felt. I was having an internal meltdown. All i could think about was dying, and how much of a failure i was, and how id never make it as an operator because i cant control my mind. In the 5th week of training, i acted on my plan to commit suicide. I went into the bathroom in the middle of the night and tied my belt to a pole that stuck out of a toilet and went up to the ceiling. I had the tension right, so that i couldnt breathe a full breath. Then i pulled out a pair of scissors i stole from a flight office a floor above my dorm. Emotionally I felt nothing as i cut myself. I cut myself horizontally along my forearms. Then seeing blood, became enraged with myself and started slashing my wrists . I really messed myself up. I felt myself passing out, and i was relieved. But I was found by a fellow trainee who got up to use the latrine. I was conscious, covered in blood, and face red from trying to hang. I was hospitalized for four days and eventually sent home. It took a suicide attempt for me to realize i have been dealing with major depression and adjustment disorder my entire life. I carry a lot of guilt for what i did. I always will.

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Prefect way to get ride of depression is to read Morning & Evening Azkar in your mother tongue.

Isaiah 41:10 (KJV)
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

It's so terrible feeling this depressed

People in rhe comments don't know what depression is and think they can think their way out.

Your content is a light in the darkness of mental health challenges. Together, we can make a positive impact. 🌈

Clinical Depression is hell on earth ⚰️🔥🔥🔥 & it's only treatment (figuratively speaking) is having a Paradise⚰️🏞️🏝️ on earth, in your mind & in your heart.🤷😎💓☝️🏴

She has to explain that depression is brain problem....omg.

Clean up your sound quality!!!!!

Force a smile. Fake it till you make it. Be an encouragement to others worse off than you. Get outside your head and concern yourself with others. It's okay to cry and be sad.

A segment is needed with this doctor

I'm high functioning and it sucks. You gotta fight everyday to function. Sometimes it takes everything in you not give up.

You just describe 3/4 of America society

How irresponsible of Fetterman running and getting elected when he is clearly unable to do his job.

He shouldn’t be in office. Stupid PA residents

Too bad he didn't off himself damn pesky mosquito

In the name of Yeshuah Hamechiac, I command all famiLIAR spirits, fallen angel spirits, and satans evil spirit to go back to the abyss RIGHT NOW!!!!!!.

Thanks for discussing this issue

The open prison over the vid issues mankind was put in for two years put cherry on cake. A few control many but the many wast time not questioning the manipulation of them/the few but we bicker so easy amongst ourselves/ themany too easy. ,But that's non of my business ....👀