your life matters.

i hate being blessed with so much, because then people expect more from me, and that's not me, i always disappoint everyone and myself, and can never find hope in any thing or person or myself at all. i wish i could apologise to my 9 year old self 7 years ago for doing this to myself.

Anyone know what anime that was with the girl in a prairie with the rocks shooting down?

I am going to come back here being a dentist

i always see videos like this that say just have hope, but what do i do when i have no hope? i genuinely cannot think of any reason to live.

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tried to leave again last night and this really is what i needed. thank u.

I love this I’m tearing up

i love this one, listen a ton of times

this is literally therapy
Thank u simon

Dude why dosent Your videos have more Views this touched me so Bad man thank you for coming at the Right time when im in my worst!

So calming

Uh yea tortured and raped and i cant get a damn doctor or person to help me, life is shit and none of you were worth being tortured for. Havent been able to walk for years and no one cared cuz everyones a selfish money hungry pos that cant imagine what ive lived thru. When they come to put everyone in camps everyone will kill each other for food. Wasted my life trying to help people that wanna be enslaved.

I even dawonlode it in my phone so i listen to it now and for ever when there's no one besides me i believe in the power of words so i love your words it's give a sense of warm feeling and hope

Best words to lossen up the sadness really thanks your video's are great ❤️❤️

I’m no psychic but I don’t need to be to see that I have no further, at least not one worth looking forward too.

I am a survivor of childhood cancer, you think I’d be happy about it right? Now don’t get me wrong at first I was but that’s only because I didn’t realize yet what I’d lost I didn’t realize I’d lost apart of myself somewhere along the way. I lost the kind hearted happy child I used to be and without him I’ve felt lost and alone inside and have been looking through the darkness trying to find him and wonder if he’ll ever forgive me for losing him there. ( I know talking in third person is a weird way to put it but it’s the best way I know to describe how i feel ) I started my fight at 5 years old I and thought I’d won 7 years later after I turned 11 but turned out I’d only won the battle but not the war. For the past 10 years I’ve been wondering why it even had to happen to me, It caused me almost nothing but misery an yet stranger still is I actually miss having it, I miss going to the cancer care clinic , I miss getting my treatments, i miss spending time in the hospital what does that say about me dose it make me weird? There are also times where I just feel frustrated or irritated and I don’t know why which just makes me angrier, and on the complete other end of the scale one time I felt so low that it quite honestly scared of what I might do. I know my mother, sisters and the rest of my family cares, but sometimes it feels like they care more for the me they want me to be rather than the me I am and that especially goes for my father. Oh my father there’s so much more I could go on about him too and how he played an still plays a role in my depression but he’s a product of his time and environment as am I. So I suppose he’s not entirely to blame but it’s still hard to deal with him. But he and they don’t really understand how I feel even if I tried to tell them about it how could they truly understand they didn’t experience it they way I did. It’s only been the last few years that I fell into my depression or that I’ve come to realize anyway. An I’ve begun to think “I shouldn’t even have survived after all” that way I’d be free of this depressing sadness in my heart. Why I’d I live I’m not good at anything, I have no friends anymore and not even sure I ever really did, I thought I had friends once but because I was different they become more like low level bullies if you know what I mean, and the friends I might have had left I haven’t seen or heard from them in years since I moved. An I’m not the smartest I was never the greatest student, I’m not even that strong, what can I offer the world? I can’t even remember the last time I was genuinely happy an sure I’ll get a chuckle now an then but the feeling never lasts it’s like lighting a match in the middle of a dark room an watching the moment burn away. There where so many children who don’t survive and any one of them would have been better off being given the life I was spared. An I doubt I’ll ever find love because of my flawed personality so what is left for me to live for I’ve got nothing left. Also my doctors have told me that my cancer could come back or I could get sick again in other ways, low odds but still I’ll forever live with that in the back of my mind. An it’s not like I WANT to die to end my pain but I also don’t want to keep living like this anymore. It feels like my strength is waning, like my will is weakening as each year passes. There’s so much more I could go on about or have explained better but I’ve gone on long enough I’m not looking for pity just getting it off my chest if only temporary to anyone who wants listen. An sometimes I wish I could start over again correct all my mistakes make better decisions keep friendships, try harder in school even though I’m a bit of slow learner on my own but who knows if this new life would actually be any better than the old one I’d essentially be erasing the current me..... sure Id probably lead a significantly better life in the short run. On the other hand I am who I am today because of what I went through an would it be worth it to throw all that away. Another thing is I’d be hard if not impossible to forget my feelings of the previous incarnation of myself to let go of the hate, loneliness, sadness left inside me. Sure I haven’t had the easiest life thus far but it also hasn’t been the worst.....or has it, see when I think about it I don’t know where the line is between the telling the truth and telling an over exaggeration and is there even a line to begin with? I welcome any thoughts and advice you have to offer me.

An If you’ve read up to this point I thank you for taking the time to listen me ramble an If there is a god I ask again why did this have to happen to me or anyone else for that matter especially for children.

Finally if and that’s a big IF I ever find a partner and am able to be rescued from my darkness with their help or on my own someday, heaven help me should anything like this happen to any child I may have in the future because I honestly don’t know how I’d be able to handle it. I also hope that I’d even be a good enough parent for my children that I wouldn’t let them down, that I could be a father they can look up too, that I’d be able to help provide not only the things they need but the things they need to accomplish the goals they want. This is not the kind of person that I wanted to become I know that my younger self would be greatly disappointed in me because I had high hopes for the future as a kid nothing outlandish but a good happy future nonetheless. I know my problems may seem insufficient when compared to others in the world, I’m not blind to that simple fact.

(Update) The ghosts of my past have finally shown themselves, they tried and failed to take my vision from me. which means if they succeed I would no longer be in metaphorical darkness but literal darkness but just like my battle with cancer there’s damage left behind.

Here’s a quote to leave off with that kind of explains this Dorothy Rowe- “Depression is a prison where you are both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailer” an unless you’ve gone through cancer of some kind you probably wouldn’t know what it is truly like but I guess you already knew that out without me having to tell you and I hope you or your loved ones never have to experience such pain. Anyway I’ve started to ramble again my apologize I’ve taken enough of your time this evening thanks again for taking the time to listen to some nobody.

Good night- stranger

I can't find hope I'm going to but I try not to somehow I keep going

thank you. I’m in a bad place and I found your channel and I’m really glad to have found you. Thank you. I have a different mindset now and I thank you so much.

This made it worse somehow

it is people like you that keep me going. thank you♥️

401 likes, no dislikes. perfect as it should be

What's the name of the song? I have heard it before too. Can't remember.

Thank you Simon

Hi Simon. Thank you for your videos I have started watching them every night before I go to sleep. Thank you so so much💜❤️

I know you’ll probably never see this but I just wanna tell you your amazing. You’ve got me though some tough time and I hope you keep doing what your doing. You’ve saved another life.

Hey Simon,

I know you won’t see this but I want to thank you for what you do. You impact so many lives and do so much good work by making these videos and donating merchandise profits I think you are a great human and the hero we don’t deserve so thank you

And keep it wholesome 🙂

I hate feeling this way. I have no reason to be sad I have a whole family and yet I feel so alone and I hate my self for being selfish for feeling this way..

I just don’t belong

I’ve watched all these videos at 2am thank you for these I like them keep it up!

so very inspirational, love u simon

can you make a video about addiction, i would really appreciate it. as always love your videos and keep it wholesome :)

You do be making me tear up doe - Musical Miles

Thank you so much for makeing these videos and helping and inspiring me also i really love the clips from your name its a vary beautiful movie

You really posted this on one of the worst days I've had in a while❤️

love and support from australia bro, keep up the inspirational videos. keep it wholesome :)

please always stay happy, simon ~ 💕

Thank you, I’ve been having some negative thought lately I sometimes like holding pills in my hand the pill that could easily kill me but your videos make me feel WAYY BETTER knowing that people like you are out there really gives me hope that I can someday be happy and forget all the bad times that happen thank you Simon! ❤️

thank you so much simon <3

Thank you so much for putting everything in perspective and helping me not feel alone with this family you have created and these videos it’s truly beautiful thank you I love you (keep it wholesome)❤️🖤❤️😁

this made me happy Simon thank u

Thank you Simon u made my day I thot what's the point were just gonna die in the end but now I think let's enjoy life to fullest while we still have it meet new people fall I love get married and have kids and grow old together thank you for opening my eyes now I will always think to enjoy life to the fullest while we still have it thx . P.s i bought ur hoodie and I'm waiting for it and I'm excited like I said thx byyee

how do you know so much?

How can only one video make me feel so much better?

this helped :) tysm

LETTSSS GOOOO SIMON! great video as always and would you look at that! Almost at 1k subs! Love you man. 💛♥️😌

Thank you for another amazing video Simon. Thank you for reassuring me to live another day <3 I really need this....

you are amazing thank you for so much keep going

hi simon :)

ily Simon

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