What the F*** am I Doing?

Sorry to hear about getting Covid again. Perhaps the answer to your anxiety is to get a dog. Lol

re -- influenza
Could it be possible you are sensitive to something in something you ate?
Maybe some petroleum-based fertilizers or pesticides?
Is it possible those 'influenza' symptoms are simply your physical body reacting to something poisonous in your food?
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For example, I got influenza symptoms each time I ate pistachios.
Turns out, my physical body had normal reactions to petroleum-based fertilizers and pesticides.
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After I eliminated those from my diet, I have zero other inflammatory symptoms such as allergies and arthritis.

Hey Rick! Follow your heart! I am 55 and hope to retire soon.. I know I will still have to work on the side from time to time but I have seen so many wait to do things until they retire and 3 years after retiring.. They are dead. I have also seen them with no health to do the things they wanted to do. I think you are doing the right thing. Hang in there. Also, hope you are feeling better soon.

'Promo sm' 😔