Hi Ren - REACTION (Lyme Disease & MCAS Fighter; Anorexia Recovery Edition)

Thank you. I dont even know what to sat.

Sending love sis. You and i have much more in common than youd think. ❤❤

Becca, thank you for your comments here, ithey certainly added something extra to how the song helps me. God bless you!

You're a beautiful person, and this is a beautiful reaction. Thank you.

Köszönjük!

You are NOT alone!! God is working!!

I, too, have Lyme that went undiagnosed for 25 years... Also Endometriosis, bi polar, anxiety, CFS, Fibrimyalgia, and heart failure (because of the Lyme)... I'm 59. By the Grace of God I am alive. Ren is bringing us all together. It's a pleasure to meet you, Beautuful! ❤

💚amazing. stay strong!🖤

Hi there, i came here because Discodoc (a friend of Ren's) sent me but I'm staying because of you. Watching you react to Hi Ren was like watching myself the first time i saw it.

I've seen lots of reactions to that song in the last few months but some people just "get" it. And that's because they "know" it. They've lived or are living through it.

When i watched it for the first time i cried for 24 hours afterwards. Never had i felt so seen. Never had someone taken the words and thoughts and feelings i have had and presented them so elegantly before me.

I'm off to watch more of your films. I look forward to learning more about you and more about me through them.

By the way, the fact that Discodoc recommended you almost certainly means that Ren has seen your reaction. ❤

I adore your reactions sweet lady. Putting yourself out there for the world to get to know who you are! You show sincere awe and empathy. I am glad DiscoDoc sent us to meet you, you have a new sub! Congratulations on your successful channel! 🐇🕳️🖤Big Love!

I've been jumping from reaction to reaction for this song since i found it two days ago. As someone who has struggled with my own disordered eating for half of my life, thank you, thank you, thank you for bringing up your own struggles with the ED voice, because that was one of my biggest takeaways from this when i listened to it the first time. I love how every reaction video, everyone has their own unique take away, and it's so beautiful to see

I cried with you honey,big hugs

God bless. I'm a huge Ren fan now I'm a huge fan of yours. Thank you so much for sharing your story. All love here

There are many parts in this song that hit me hard. One part is when he starts 'singing' near the end (when he finds his 'voice' so to speak). I recognize that as the 'moment' he is the furthest from 'Dark Ren', the moments when 'Dark Ren' almost disappears, and he experiences the greatest relief! Personally I call those moments 'Steph'. I also still have a lot to figure out.
Love and Best Wishes Becca

Becca you keep fighting!!! Ren is really something, deep dive, you’ll like the water!!!

Subbing 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻great reaction!!!

Hopefully you have looked into the treatment Ren is going through. I know Chelation is one of them, and a strict Carnivore diet. Keep working towards recovery... new things discovered every day. Never Give Up.

As someone with a differing faith, I very much appreciate the logic and compassion with which you speak about the parts of the song containing religious iconography. I've read that Ren doesn't necessarily subscribe to Christianity but that the allusions and iconography are powerful to him. Recognizing that the 'religious' subject matters here--good and evil, perseverance etc. are universal and aren't just narrowly a part of any one person's personal faith is beautifully refreshing, particularly among reactors to this video. Thank you for sharing your reaction with us.

I think a lot of people miss that there’s actually 3 “people” in this song. There’s Ren’s disorder/demon, Ren himself, and at the end it’s Hope or Faith or whatever you want to call it. You can hear the difference in tone in the last verse when he says Hi Ren. That one that didn’t flinch was his hope/light. He says at the end about being 2 sides of the same coin (evil/good). So don’t feel bad that you have had it tough, I’m sure he did too, but Hope is telling him he’s been with him the whole time and HE didn’t flinch.

@Renmakesmusic check this out mate its really good.

It was so refreshing to hear your input and am sorry to hear about your struggles, I climb cliffs/craggs and high trees with a record player and film it, ive been injured alot, the last fall i had i broke my eye orbit, cheek and nose and damaged the cartilage in my knee, i was through to be just abit manic with my risk taking, it wasn't apparent i had mental health problems (possibly a brain injury from a earlier fall) till i found an handaxe stuck in a tree, my inquisitive mind won me over with me taking the axe to the arm on my left-sided, i now have a nine inch scar on that arm, the scar didn't heal right as i didnt bother to go to the doctors, i didnt see it as important as it was only the left arm, it took about three months to heal, the doctors are puzzled how i could hide such a deep wound for so long, later i was miss-diagnosed with manic depression but it turns out it is a form of OCD and possible brain injury coupled with autism, wither the OCD came with the injury is to hard to tell, i have a few other problems but i don't really take in what am told i see it as am not an expert so the labels dont matter to me as long as the health experts know my conditions, as long as i can still go out on the moors and deep in forest far from anywhere (4 to 6 hours to walk to my favourite spots) i know am not well but i feel other need help more than i, as long as i have my music and art i endure, i hate to see the pain in others and wish i could take it from them, i really appreciated your reaction as i have trouble expressing emotions but i experience how others can show what i feel inside, i hope things improves for you, but you stay you in the process of health changes, staying you is important its the only you there is

Becca, thank you. Given your history, you did good. I've seen this video dozens of times and expected you to disintegrate. But you didn't, you were strong. Well done kiddo !
I urge you to cover 'Chalk Outlines', it is beautiful, challenging and cleverly shot in one take !
❤🙏

He is 33.

He didn't get dropped from Sony for having a mental disorder. He clarified in an interview that he got to a point where he was bedridden for 23 hours a day from the fatigue and was not able to physically able to meet the contract and was released. As someone that never had to deal with this kind of chronic disorder I think the worst thing the doctors did to this man was to give anti-psychotic drugs to someone that wasn't psychotic.

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Darling Becca, I just met you today with this reaction video and from the understanding of your illness, I know you will ride it out and survive. You are strong and you are a fighter, never give up hope and never stop trying to regain your life, you will win. I have suffered for over 30 years with mental illness and I still have the odd bought with myself, but I have, my life back, I have my cameras and I have my woodworking hobby. God will look out for you as he did for me and faith is stronger than anything that gets thrown our way. Keep up the fight, god bless...Rob

Only one complaint. Please, please, rewind before you go on after a pause. We all know you have to get something ‘off your chest’ in the moment, but please start backtracking because you miss continuity, and therefore, part of the performance. I don’t call this a song. This is art. We’ve been missing that from the world lately. Thank you Ren. But, would you please stop pausing, and beginning like you remember every point up to it. I can tell you don’t remember.

Love your authentic reaction and vulnerability

Not sure if anyone has commented on it already but the she sells seashells by the seashore is a reference to one of his previous songs "money game pt 2" Stay strong girl! Great reaction, I think i airway for everyone watching this that we all cried with you

"Reaction Video" not running commentary video 😫😫😫

Hi Becca. I just wanted to say thank you for putting your video up for me to see. I’ve had times in my life being in a busy room and feeling so alone. None of us are. Stay healthy xx

Just found this from Rens sub reddit. Agree with everybody else, this is an amazing reaction. So, so powerful. Thanks to who ever posted it. Thanks for you putting some context in there. 😊❤

Ren can sing lyrics NF cannot as he is under music label control. He also produces everything himself. You wont see anybody with a record label releasing a song called Suicide they would not let him. Fine doing violence but we cannot speak about mental health aparently Thats why Ren and Chinchilla left their management so they could speak. Because the radio don’t even play him. Ren went independent. NF should do the same because the music World is about to change. People are sick of over produced nonsense.

Off to watch your Sick Boy reaction ❤

I'm in my 60's having spent all of those years collecting PTSD events, and in 2012, my mom passed away 800 miles from where I live. I was there though, helping my younger brother with her hospice care. Later in the spring I woke with a tick on the back of my thy behind my knee. Two weeks later I returned home and woke on the 4th of July with a big red bullseye and lymphocytes around the site. Being a holiday, the ER was my only option. I told the ER doctor that the rash site was from a tick in Pennsylvania. She simply decided to treat for staph infection with not the slightest interest in any actual diagnostics. She scripted penicillin and another antibiotic targeting staph. The rash got redder and hotter. My doctor's P.A. refused to challenge the ER Dr.'s diagnosis and simply escalated it to "drug resistant". For a week I took one gram per day of EACH of the same two meds, and the rash got redder. I DEMANDED TESTING! A referral was made to a wound specialist to take a biopsy sample. It came back NEGATIVE FOR STAPH! EVERYONE IN THE LOOP KNEW ABOUT THE TICK!!! I Googled "tick rash" and a picture appeared of the exact same rash I had on my leg, a big red bullseye with a slight clearing around the periphery. I was still taking the horse dose of both antibiotics which may have kept the infection local. I called the doctor directly (not the P.A.) and told him I thought it was Lyme's. He referred me for a blood draw for Lyme's and I went immediately. Two weeks later I got a call from the CDC to collect data, and from the doctor to get the shot, and he still screwed that up. I was recovering from my forth spinal fracture at the time, and even though I had been clear with him in the past AND AT THE TIME that I could not tolerate any pain medication, the dipshit injected me with a cocktail that included a potent pain med which blocked signals from over stressing my back, and I ended up bed ridden again for nearly a month again after just starting to become ambulatory almost two years after this latest L1 compression fracture. My L1 vertebrae looks like a DOOR STOP!

I was LUCKY! My treatment wasn't protracted for too long that I noticed any Lyme's symptoms. My PTSD however is constantly blooming. I found your video very reassuring and connecting! I found the HI REN video a few months ago and have been binging reaction videos. You remind me a lot of my younger sister who just moved into an assisted living center last Wednesday. I wish I could get her to watch HI REN! She was a Christian Science member and has been shining that light too bright for too long and casting pretty dark shadows! It's actually rather a family tendency aside from any religious connotations!

What a life! I wish you the best, and please know you are not alone! I really identify with HI REN! I haven't made any music for over thirty years, planned a lot but not able to follow through. This might catalyze some progress for me. I hope for you too!

Well thought this was a raw reaction but she researched first. Powerful song tho

Honey, Soak up what Ren say's, I am sure it will help you in your struggle.

What's an NF and why compare these?

I've watched several of your reactions tonight and, you got me, I'm subscribed now and I'm here for your journey and wish you all the best

you stop the video too much for me to continue - loads of love in your journey

Within the first minute of the song you paused it 6 times. You miss the true value of the song by pausing so many times. 33 times in the video is way to many to get the whole feeling of it.

32 minutes. A warning that becomes quickly obvious that yes, you like to constantly stop and yap every few seconds. Yet someone said this was the most heartfelt reaction ever. I don't want to miss that so instead of moving on like I would normally, I will try and see it through.

It would have been beautiful to have seen your reaction with out all the pauses.hope you’re well.

This was my fave review/reaction to Hi Ren! Hope and pray for your continued journey along the path Becca...

I heard Ren himself say in an interview that the story about the record label dropping him when he found out he had Lyme disease is not true. He was extremely sick while trying to make music, and when his contract ended, both sides felt that it was best for him to take care of his health before signing another contract. And that is what he’s doing currently. He is in Canada undergoing quite a rigorous health regimen to repair the damage from the years of Lyme disease going untreated. He does not seem to hold any ill will towards Sony. also, I greatly enjoyed your reaction.

GOD BLESS YOU BECCA......SOME PEOPLE KNOWS HIM EAS HOPE 🙏:)!

Good reaction. You seemed to be effected by the 'relax and soften' and the self compassion.
Good luck on your journey

Hi Ren is such a masterpiece.. and you're the only other person I've seen hit as hard as I was by the line "Some people know me as the voice that hear when you loosen the noose on the rope". You're whole reaction was amazing, I feel like a lot of people I've seen react to this (even my own friends) 'kind of' get it, or the idea of it, but not all of it like I did or you have... It's really nice to see someone else be as moved as I was ^-^!

If you haven't already, do his Sick boi video and then suicide. These are my personal favorites.

He looks so much younger than 33.

I've watched many reactions to Hi Ren, but yours is the only one that made me cry. I don't understand your pain with the eating disorder, it's something I've never experienced (though I empathize with it and wish you the best in regards to your recovery from it) but I absolutely relate to your chronic illness and mental illness struggles. I have autoimmune disease, fibro, and a neurological motor disorder which disables me. I have also had depression since childhood. I've even had Lyme disease but it was caught fairly early and successfully treated, though it caused some nerve damage that's exacerbated by my pre-existing autoimmune disease. You of course must know how "lovely" comorbid conditions are that way! And like Ren, my autoimmune disease was misdiagnosed as psychosomatic mental illness for 15 years, and the medication they gave me just made everything worse. Seeing how deeply his performance affected you touched me, and I appreciate you sharing your own experiences. I subscribed, because I want to see how you progress in your recovery. Best of luck to you, and take care of yourself. <3