pov: thinking about the memories ( calm - slowed down songs )

I have my biggest end of year exam and I'm stressing out crying my fudging balls out... Well let's hope I can do it... Pray man GGs Y'all Goodbye

I feel so hurt inside and I try to talk to people about it, but I know that they're going through things themselves and I don't want to throw everything in my life down onto their shoulders as another burden that they have to carry.

I have memories of being with people that I cared about, but then I lost them. I lost them because they left, or I had to leave, and now I don't get to see them. It hurts so f-ing much when I know that they found a new person to be close with. I know it's jealousy, but that doesn't make it any less painful.

Anyone who reads as comment just remember this be confident become a monster and you won't ever feel depression again❤❤❤❤❤

I love this playlist ❤❤❤

Parents say the internet… FYI SOMEPARTS HAVE CUSSING AND INAPPROPRIATE THINGS





But not all internet users are bad







Can you make a promise for me please take care of yourself even though I can’t take care of myself
Remember kiddos or seniors or adults or teens it’s not your fault it’s the ones that you gave up on you for no reason like mine did to me but don’t hurt yourself because of the past because I care even though I don’t know yall but it might hurt to see people you love hurt you or leave you because of ur mistakes… mistakes are normal human things but nobody is perfect u could say that about me I loved my best friend for so long she was so sweet then some bitches told her rumors and she is really easy to manipulate so those people said “He is just a person that will be overwhelmed by anything and very emotional he won’t last long 😂 like why be with a person like that”so I just walked off so when she found out what she heard and saw me walking away she believed that rumor and here I am listen I’m kinda like what the rumors said but not that much but just stay positive and keep ur head up and don’t hurt yourself pls if I couldn’t save myself when I was 10 just let me help yall I’m currently 14 years old but I have a sister who posts on this account I made a video a while back but the thing is it’s not about if you could change the past (I would have tbh) don’t feel like ur better off dead because listen I have a knife every night at exactly 3:18 a.m on my neck I try to push down or decide to slice until I bleed but I think of my siblings (if u have siblings ) and I don’t want them hurt because of what I did or anything think of the moments u felt good but if that doesn’t work I would give you all big hugs if I seen you just look from how you were then protect ur inner child if u want to stay positive but… if the darkest times for me were when I just felt… I was worth nothing (still do) besides the point self love sucks sometimes because of you lost your emotions because of back then you might not have a lot I don’t anymore but still I just want to say this I WOULD PROTECT YALL AND GIVE YALLS HUG IF I COULD I WONT GIVE A FINE FUCK IF U CRY NO MATTER WITH UR GENDER EVEN AS COUNTRY BOY I BELIVE THERE IS TWO GENDERS BUT… YOUR BELIEF IS UR BELIEF ALSO NO MATTER RELIGION OR AGE IF U NEED A HUG JUST RESPOND CR I NEED A HUG I WILL TRY TO RESPOND (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡ (つ≧▽≦)つ they say that no matter what love yourself more than anything I don’t love myself but I’m trying my best to help people first so peace out
My misery is not nothing yall need to worry care about ur self even though I don’t put myself first it’s because I’m trying keep the population growing but when I do die I would be happy I managed it to help people just because if I could I would go back to the time about the rumors and grab her before it was to late but I can’t we all wish we could have a better life but we go through this together I would say this untill I’m black and blue in my face I care about everyone else before my self because the truth is you still have a chance meanwhile this upcoming summer I’m going to military camp well done my stupid ass mistakes you would rather be a bad person but help people online and irl but not your self I swear i can help people more than myself I ran into the girl that got manipulated into that rumor she gave me a big fat hug she squeezed me I’m not saying what scared me what it was lol 😂😂 boys you might know she is 5 foot 7 and I’m 2 5 foot 5 bro im short so something was near my face she know what she was doing but besides the point she said sorry now here we are back friends and she started crying seeing the small cuts and bruises that I did to myself so yeah she Been upset for what happen so last week she said thank you for everything I managed to get to her house in time and managed to grab the gun so now we are a lot closer than back then so she been trying to help me but the thing is she said I couldn’t help you then because of how easy I was to get manipulative and we just want yall all know sometimes when someone hurts you sometimes it’s because the we’re convinced and lost and they could comeback

Helllo it’s me vanill the person who messed up back then I think if you could help yourself and people u could do anything but love people but some people might comeback like I did if it wouldn’t look for him after his great grandfather passed they really had a great bond then he was not the same I might have lost a lot of respect and friends because I became friends with him again but the thing is I learned that I messed up when we were 12 we known each other since I was a baby and same goes for him me and him when we split as friends when I was 12 I realized he just been hurt to much and I saw him all the way to 8th wearing more jackets and sweat pants because he is covering his scars and he wears dark classes and a mask because he was insecure about his own self and then he ain’t lying about what poked him not it’s not a dic yall dirty minded people lol it’s on the chest but besides is idk why he had to say that lol but like he hadn’t played sports since we split as friends when we were 12 but since I can back he shown more and more but he just needed someone to care for him like back then and I felt like a jerk so accept the friends that want to comeback to be back best friends but listen watch them carefully because they could use u but not me I felt bad and I wanted to die but he saved me and I saved him 1 day ago he tried to h@ng him self but I managed to cut the rope we’re not emo so yeah we just been hurt by our parents our past our own selfs so if u need a hug say do what cr if u want a hug by both say can I get a hug crvanill but we understand if u don’t we all know yalls pain just take care of yourself love you all safety is what we carry us but don’t give up on yourselfs (づ๑•ᴗ•๑)づ♡


Ps. Cr and vanill
Yeah I know that we are trust somehow managed from bestfriends to former to somewhat friends then bestfriends again then somehow somewhat a couple but we are just really close friends idc if I’m a short and she taller she just wants me to be happy after her dumb mistakes she even agreed with that she said everyone should find a friend u believe deserves a chance but keep a eye on them ps vanill and cr have a great day or night or afternoon or midnight 🥺 u matter all of yall

can somebody tell me the 1. song ? ( the first clip song )

I moved away from all my friends and when I talk to them they tell me about the event and thing that are happening and then I realize there making memories and I’m not in them

shiiiiiiiiii shiiii shiiiii very god best cool voice best of best

This song and this coments did so much to me i am feeling better when i listen to sad music and watch comments thanks guys love you all❤

Lost me grandad 5 days ago can't stop thinking about him the memories and seeing him before he died, ig these songs take me out of reality. I see him in my dreams when I close my eyes I feel like I can feel his touch but when I wake up back to reality I realise its all just a dreamn

I miss the past, it would be better if the future didn't exist. I would've loved to stay a kid.

someone putting this beautiful playlist when writing a language esay about memories🥺🫤

your skin isn't a paper, don't cut it
your neck isn't a coat, don't hang it
your body isn't a book, don't judge it
your life isn't a movie, dont end it
you're beautiful the way you are, dont listen to them, your life is amazing <3

She just left me after 5 years i always support her because she were lonely and after i become lonely too her new friends didn't like me so she broke up with me and im totally alone nw .. it really hurts my biggest problem that i still love her

it hurts so bad when the only person i want a hug from is the one who hurt me so bad to make me physically sick

Just thinking about my crush :]

Great job!

Anyone else truly believe that when you have those cuts on your wrists and the water runs over them or the fabric or long sleeves touching them, isn't that pain kind of relieving?

Кто нибудь когда нибудь чувствовал себя так одиноко, что хочется умереть?

Listening to this song with one person in mind. It's you, Cris Justine Morales. You won't see this anyway.

I loved him more than anything. i miss him everyday and even though he absolutely shattered my heart into a million pieces i hope that he will come back into my life after he worked on himself. I saw him at his lowest and I want to see him at his highest. He has a good soul. He just went through too much shit to love right now. He saved my life and I just wanted to save his. He gave me a reason to fight everyday. He always listened to me when I had no one but him. No one could make me laugh like he did. Kevin I will always wait for you. ich liebe dich du otto

Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Jesus said to Thomas, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me". There is only one way to heaven. That Way is Jesus and his word of truth. No other can grant us eternal life.

Just wanna say fuck you to all the ads that interrupted my music.

"Just keep smiling " , im trying to stay as happy as i can so i dont get stressed with the many responsibilities i have now and the expectations my whole school has for me , i hope ill be ok , but rn i can rest my tired body and im glad i still have these alone moments to think and calm down instead of being busy

Can anyone please help me out? Im a 16 year old, in a thrid world country. Life became too hard on me lately. My father kicked me out of the house because I "talked back" its just a fucking excuse he used to kick me out of the fucking house. Stepmom was properly the reason why he did that. She gaslighted him. He gave me a day to prepare i stole 400 dollars that i found in his safe and took my phone that my mother gave me before she died and a charger and some spare shorts and tshirts and went on my way. I found this small motel, not to big nor small average small room costs 45 dollars a week which is pretty manageable by me. Getting a job interview tomorrow. Kinda nervous not gonna lie i will be lying if i wasnt crying as am typing this monologue of mine. I hope will get the job in this retail store near the motel. From what i saw when i went and asked a few people tgat worked there its a solid 150ish a month which is pretty good to be honest. Its very cold in the motel room and im literally shivering 🤣
But i hope everything will be okay with the help of god. If anybody read till this point i hope you have amazing parents that loves you ❤❤ and can you give me tips? About what i should do? After i secure this job (Hopefully) what should i do after? That was my question love you all and i hope you guys have an amazing night/day ❤❤❤

why did you add ads you kinda ruined it

I guess only my pillow is my life long real partner at least wipes all my tears without ever complaining 🙂

2 up

Hurting someone's feelings is as easy as throwing a rock at the ocean, but do you know how deep that rock goes?

😢 anyone else just feel like just giving up and just ending it all

one of the steps to finding happiness is changing your surroundings. And well if you are surrounded by s****y people who will use and abuse your kindness, you aren't really taking steps forward. "ouch that heart my heart". Take half a step BACKWARDS, do not collect $200 and if you roll doubles again you go straight to jail, oh and now youre stuck thinking about it for a few days.. all because you landed on someone elses space, and rather then being a good host, they are charging you rent, and now youre in love debt. Love for yourself, most specifically. Each time you open up to someone who isn't making the steps to grow as a person that's another dollar in the debt jar because rather then taking out that dollar and putting it towards yourself, you starved while someone else got seconds.

absolute silence leads to saddness its the image to death -unknown

boys should mess up your lipstick not your mascara

You’re worth atleast a million dollars just sell your organs to the right people and you’ll find out

If u wear headphones literally best affects

my bf left me and this just hit different

Anyone know the name of the first song? ❤

Fkin ad just ruined the mood👎

I've had depression and suicidal thoughts for a year and have also had SH.. and YES, I talk to friends and family about my feelings and problems, but I just have the feeling that my friends are getting annoyed with me when I ALWAYS tell them tell my feelings... I feel so empty and wrong in this world.. I feel like everyone hates me and I just don't want to have these feelings that I have anymore.. I don't want to be in this horrible world anymore.. 😢❤️‍🩹 I need help and next week is my first appointment with a psychologist but I don't know if she can help me because I have the feeling that I'm being eaten from the inside out... I just can't take it anymore... 😔❤️‍🩹 I thank my friends, family and my pets for always helping me, but I still cry almost every night because I can't do any of this anymore... I just think to myself every day: Why do I still exist? I'm sure I'm just getting on everyone's nerves and I'm a huge mistake in this world...😔❤️‍🩹😢

All I wanted was just a hug

Why is it mostly i get negative memories pop up in my head then positive?

Life is so hard

In this world of hustle when we stop and look back ..we lost a beautiful age ..we lost us

A very underrated playlist ♡